finally words are coming to me

ive been stuck

between perfectionism and pain

loneliness is waning

my soul self is emerging

again

hello

where have you been?

ive missed you

sleeping you say?

i prayed to find you again

you told me to go alone

find a secret place

and there i will find you

crazy they call me

doubting myself i stumble

but through the fog and coldness

the sun burned through

piercing my heart 

with hope 

and a vision 

that my source 

is within me always

just waiting for me 

to peel away the layers

unload the baggage

exposing my vulnerable

awkwardly beautiful soul

to once again get back

on my horse and ride

freely into the unknown

with excitement 

and a wild imagination

that anything is possible

and the universe is waiting 

for me to share my gifts

of pain and disappointment

which were outshadowed by

joy and triumph